Struggling with who I am

So, not much is happening these days, hence the lack of blogs. Things are still up in the air...waiting has got to be one of the hardest things for me. I guess that is what God is really trying to teach me here, patience. And I'm failing miserably!

I'm still wrestling with who I am and what I believe. This has been a very tough personal journey for me. I've never had to question my faith or myself before, so I know it's important, but still so tough! However, I did take communion for the first time this morning, and for me that is a huge breakthrough. By doing this, I'm acknowledging to myself and to God that He is there, and that He did die for my sins. I am remembering His sacrifices for me. However, not sure what that means on a more personal level, as far as my sins. I think the next step for me in this journey is to reopen my Bible. Tough step....I've been avoiding doing that. However, a good friend put it to me in terms that made sense. Maybe rather that reading it as THE HOLY BIBLE, I need to step back and just read it as a book. A tough book, but a book. Maybe that will help me see it more clearly. I don't know, but I'm going to try.

Speaking of books, I have decided with a fellow teacher to start a book club. We are starting it very small (group of 4-5), and I'm so excited! I have wanted to do this for years, and she gave me the jump start I needed to do it. I'll keep you posted on the books we are reading! As I'm sure you know, reading is a love of mine, and at this point I know I read very quickly and very superficially, and I'm can't wait to dive into the next level of truly understanding more about what I'm reading, and author's purpose. Of course, not all books will be read like that, but it will be a fun new challenge to even just read one or two that way. I am committed to making time in my busy schedule to do this. I think we are starting in about a month.

Halloween is quickly approaching. I have to tell you, this is my least favorite of all holidays. Probably because I'm just not creative, and I hate the cold! Tracking from house to house is not my idea of fun! But, my kids are so excited. We scouted and scouted for the "perfect" costume for A, and he thinks he has found it. I'll post pictures soon after the big day ;)

And now, I need to get to work. I have tons of planning to do at school for the next week, and not much time to do it. The kids are at the movies (HSM 3), so my time is limited. Off to get busy!

Till next time....